Where has the time gone?

Well it's been ages since I last updated my blog. I have to say that the last time I updated this space, it was Eros Day, which feels like last year. And lot has happened since the last time I was here. I have survived family drama, family and I aren't talking but no need to dwell on it here. I was laid off from my design job at the local paper here in town. I'm currently on unemployment, applying to any design job I can find.

I actually during this time have come to the conclusion that I want to change gears and change careers, I know crazy right?! I don't think so. I haven't been happy with my design jobs going back all the way to my first one. A friend of mine in the world of Marriage and Family Therapy had on several occasions suggested to me that I would be good at MFT, as I am insightful, thoughtful, and great at guiding others while not giving them the answers they need to find for themselves. I have been thinking about it as long as she has been mentioning it to me. Finally the last time I saw her, I said I want to take you up on what you are suggesting. She made some suggestions to local universities here in my town that I could complete the course, if I'm accepted, in about 2 yrs and out in the field working shortly after. Well after an appointment about 2 weeks ago, I have requested my transcripts, sent out the recommendation check list pple have to fill out on my behalf, applied for FASFA, and I have one essay down and written. All that is left is to go to the Information Session on October 6th. Which I've RSVP'ed to already.

What I find interesting is that I had said to a friend of mine a few months back before all this stuff hit the fan, that I would love to be a guide of sorts. Help people find their way while empowering them to do so. It goes all the way back to the idea of being a magickal person. Being crafty if you. And through the course of our talk she said she could see that and the stuff we touched upon made me realize that I could do something like that in my life. The world of Design has some how left me unhappy and struggling to make ends meet. Also truly missing people. It's what I loved about Borders, the ability to talk to people and interact with them. The ability to guide some.

So when I lost my job, after much soul searching and some other stuff that went down during that time, I went for walks. During these walks, I would open myself up to the Gods and Spirits and said to them just guide me, I'm lost. And the more and more I thought about the MFT job possibility, the more things were put in my path. I mean all the ducks seemed to be lining up in a row without effort or much trying. And with a few freak outs of can I go back to school? I've been out of school for about 10 yrs can I do this again? I'm 32 years old and I'm gonna go back?! The more things seemed to fall into place. Which I thought was interesting. Like someone upstairs is saying, you want to be a guide? Help pple?! Put your money where your mouth is. And I'm doing it. I just have to wait on the Grant Plus Loan (I think that is the name) which will dictate how much money I get to live on. If I can get enough to pay the mortgage plus get a little part time job doing something wonderfully mindless, I will do it. If not, then I will have to figure something out as well it sadly about the money to tell you the truth. The figures have to add up. We live in a world where money rules. We can't live someplace for free, get free food; everything has a cost.

However on a magickal spiritual note, my path has blossomed. I have made my study | Temple space truly a wonderful place to be. I burn incense every day as part of my prayers or offerings of thanks. I make offerings of water and music ( i usually play an instrumental cd ). I even have candles both real and artificial that I use. My grimoire hasn't come along as I would like in the realm of crafting that, but I think I will focus on that sometime this week. However, I've truly hit a space in my spirituality that I'm happy even though it's growing, evolving, and changing. It everyday grows and becomes more me and fills my world. I see the world through the realm of spiritual magickal expression that I think working at the Design Job at the local paper drained from me and took from me. But I have found it again. I am truly happy.

So where has the time gone?! Well I can say it's brought be me here to this point in my life. Where I am back to writing, praising the Gods and weaving a wonderful tapestry that is my path.

I'm back.

Eros Day Yr 2.

Now about a year ago, I wrote an entry about making Valentine's Day more pagan for us pagan folks. While the original post was just putting thought to 'paper', but I thought I would make an entry.

So Eros' Day. How do we honour this day? Well we can spend it with someone we care about. Do the cards, flowers, chocolates, etc. It's important to honour the divine principle Love.

While honouring the god, Eros, we could light a candle and give him praise and thanks.


How are you planning to celebrate?

It's Been Awhile.

I know it's been awhile since my last post. My apologies about that.
I have had a lot going on in my offline life, and a lot of it isn't too
pleasant. Which I won't dwell on it here nor focus on those situations
that have caused everything in my personal life to take a swan dive.

However, I just wanted to let you -- dear reader, I am well and doing fine.
I am currently working on a new post idea, that I have been toying with
since my little vacation started.

We should be getting back to our regularly scheduled programme shortly.

La Festa Di Cornucopia

Just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Cornucopia!!!

Hello Again | Eros Day

Well it's been ages, well based on what my last post says, August 16, 2010. And I apologize for that, honest!! Between starting my new job and some things going on in my private life, this blog suffered and that's sad, as I enjoy this little piece of internet.

However, things have calmed down, sorta, and I will focus on this blog again. 

But on to the second part of the title of this entry, which probably has you scratching your head when you read Eros Day. Now this idea isn't entirely my own, but I have never honestly connected with Valentines Day-it's mythology, etc. Now I don't have a problem with Christianity or Catholicism, but we just never clicked. 

And the Romans this time of year had Lupercalia, which was a fertility festival, and valentines day really isn't a fertility festival ( it could be for some lol ), but I have always wanted to create something connected to some of the symbols associated with the holiday. 

So keeping this always in the back of my mind, I was inspired when I was watching Caprica, the BSG prequel, and the episode that I saw, they were celebrating Eros Day-giving each other cards etc. From there I was inspired. So this year I decided to celebrate Eros Day. In Roman Mythology, Cupid (or Amor) was associated with Eros, and since Cupid already plays a big part- and besides Cupid Day doesn't have that ring to it, you know what I mean?

From there Eros Day to Eros; how would or should someone celebrate? While I haven't figured out the logistics on the how just yet, but this year let's make Eros Day our pagan version of the holiday... we can honor Eros along with his mother....

And since he shoots arrows that makes lovers fall in love, he is also the patron of male love, so right there we have taken care of two birds with one stone, if you think about it. A god associated with love in different forms.

So can I be the first to wish you dear reader a Happy Eros Day!!!!

Celebrate with love, chocolate... Let Eros' arrows strike our hearts this day....  

P|S I know this post isn't really well written, but I wanted to put my idea down on paper and let it blossom to see where it goes.

Afoxé Para Logun

Menino caçador 

Flecha no mato bravio 
Menino pescador 
Pedra no fundo do rio 

Coroa reluzente 
Todo ouro sobre azul 
Menino onipotente 
Meio Oxóssi, meio Oxum 

Menino caçador 
Flecha no mato bravio 
Menino pescador 
Pedra no fundo do rio 

Coroa reluzente 
Todo ouro sobre azul 
Menino onipotente 
Meio Oxóssi, meio Oxum 

Eh..., quem é que ele é? 
Ah..., onde é que ele está? 
Axé, menino,axé! 
Fara Logun, Fara Logun, Fá 
Axé, menino,axé! 
Fara Logun, Fara Logun, Fá 

Menino, meu amor 
Minha mãe, meu pai, meu filho 
Toma teu axoxô 
Teu onjé de coco e milho 

Me dá do teu axé 
Que eu te dou teu mulucum 
Menino, doce mel 
Meio Oxóssi, meio Oxum

The Remuria

I know I haven't posted here in ages and I'm sorry for that, but I thought I would blog here as a way to kinda write down a thought I have been having. Since my little vacation from blogging and just meditating on my personal path and practice
-Okay i'm digressing-

I have been toying with the idea about Remus and Romulus-as we know from popular legends that Romulus killed Remus and founded Rome. Well doing some research on the Lemuria, which on my personal calendar I have moved it Oct.31| Nov.1-

However, according to Ovid's Fasti, the origin of this ancient festival, who derives Lemuria from a supposed Remuria was that it had been instituted by Romulus to appease the spirit of Remus. So, that got me thinking-and toying with the idea of the Remuria (May 9,11,13) as a day of atonement and appeasing Remus' spirit.

A day filled with prayers and meditation....

Thoughts?