Where has the time gone?

Well it's been ages since I last updated my blog. I have to say that the last time I updated this space, it was Eros Day, which feels like last year. And lot has happened since the last time I was here. I have survived family drama, family and I aren't talking but no need to dwell on it here. I was laid off from my design job at the local paper here in town. I'm currently on unemployment, applying to any design job I can find.

I actually during this time have come to the conclusion that I want to change gears and change careers, I know crazy right?! I don't think so. I haven't been happy with my design jobs going back all the way to my first one. A friend of mine in the world of Marriage and Family Therapy had on several occasions suggested to me that I would be good at MFT, as I am insightful, thoughtful, and great at guiding others while not giving them the answers they need to find for themselves. I have been thinking about it as long as she has been mentioning it to me. Finally the last time I saw her, I said I want to take you up on what you are suggesting. She made some suggestions to local universities here in my town that I could complete the course, if I'm accepted, in about 2 yrs and out in the field working shortly after. Well after an appointment about 2 weeks ago, I have requested my transcripts, sent out the recommendation check list pple have to fill out on my behalf, applied for FASFA, and I have one essay down and written. All that is left is to go to the Information Session on October 6th. Which I've RSVP'ed to already.

What I find interesting is that I had said to a friend of mine a few months back before all this stuff hit the fan, that I would love to be a guide of sorts. Help people find their way while empowering them to do so. It goes all the way back to the idea of being a magickal person. Being crafty if you. And through the course of our talk she said she could see that and the stuff we touched upon made me realize that I could do something like that in my life. The world of Design has some how left me unhappy and struggling to make ends meet. Also truly missing people. It's what I loved about Borders, the ability to talk to people and interact with them. The ability to guide some.

So when I lost my job, after much soul searching and some other stuff that went down during that time, I went for walks. During these walks, I would open myself up to the Gods and Spirits and said to them just guide me, I'm lost. And the more and more I thought about the MFT job possibility, the more things were put in my path. I mean all the ducks seemed to be lining up in a row without effort or much trying. And with a few freak outs of can I go back to school? I've been out of school for about 10 yrs can I do this again? I'm 32 years old and I'm gonna go back?! The more things seemed to fall into place. Which I thought was interesting. Like someone upstairs is saying, you want to be a guide? Help pple?! Put your money where your mouth is. And I'm doing it. I just have to wait on the Grant Plus Loan (I think that is the name) which will dictate how much money I get to live on. If I can get enough to pay the mortgage plus get a little part time job doing something wonderfully mindless, I will do it. If not, then I will have to figure something out as well it sadly about the money to tell you the truth. The figures have to add up. We live in a world where money rules. We can't live someplace for free, get free food; everything has a cost.

However on a magickal spiritual note, my path has blossomed. I have made my study | Temple space truly a wonderful place to be. I burn incense every day as part of my prayers or offerings of thanks. I make offerings of water and music ( i usually play an instrumental cd ). I even have candles both real and artificial that I use. My grimoire hasn't come along as I would like in the realm of crafting that, but I think I will focus on that sometime this week. However, I've truly hit a space in my spirituality that I'm happy even though it's growing, evolving, and changing. It everyday grows and becomes more me and fills my world. I see the world through the realm of spiritual magickal expression that I think working at the Design Job at the local paper drained from me and took from me. But I have found it again. I am truly happy.

So where has the time gone?! Well I can say it's brought be me here to this point in my life. Where I am back to writing, praising the Gods and weaving a wonderful tapestry that is my path.

I'm back.